Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in fantasy_faerie's LiveJournal:

Friday, November 26th, 2004
1:01 am	missing the kids... ok, well, this is kind of an old topic but it keeps comming back to haunt me. most of you know about the kids my mom used to babsysitt for: Ethan(2 yrs old), Nicky (3 yrs old), Olivia (8 yrs old), and Emma (11 yrs old). they were like a second family to me and i love them, especially ethan..he's just too cute. well, she worked for a crazy lady who fired my mom because her kids got her sick. ironic eh? well, this woman was looking for any reason to fire my mom cause personally, i don't think she liked her. well anyways, i had this dream a while ago that i didn't remember until dinner that night. it nagged at the back of my head as though i should remember something. my mom was talking to some guy who worked at sizzlers when i saw this lady walk in carrying a baby and two kids walking behind her. I could of sworn it was Monique(crazy lady) if it wasn't for the kids. i'd recognize them anywhere. when i saw that, it triggered the dream. everything came rushing back to me and it was almost too much too take. it was like you see in movies or something. my dream was this- me & my mom accidently ran into the kids at a park. we were happy and all and then monique showed up and in short, started talkin crap. then what hurt me the MOST out of the whole dream, was that ethan didn't remember who i was cause i had been away for so long. that killed me inside. it felt too real, WAY too real. i don't want that happening. i almost lost it in the resturant, thank god i didn't, especially with that guy standing right there. my mom asked if i was ok but i said it was just my headache that had been bothering me most of the day. i just now had a little discussion bout the kids with my mom. i didn't tell her my dream though, i woulda cried again. i did tell her that if she didn't call JR(father) then i would. she said she wants to see them too so she's going to call next week sometime. i'm sooooo afraid my dream will come true though. it just hurts...it's almost as if you've been torn away from your family and god knows i ALREADY know what that feels like. what hurts the most is that when monique fired my mom, she said we could never see the kids again...hint this whole problem in the first place. that night, i balled my eyes out with the radio up so my mom wouldn't find out and she didn't. when it comes ot certain things, i just wanna b left alone, you all kno what i mean. i do have 1 thing from the kids...the last day i was with them, me, olivia, and emma all made a plastic dish together and emma wrote a poem/note for it. i keep it on top of my stereo with the note still inside. some of you have probably seen it and thought nothing of it. it's rainbow colored and out in plain view. well, it holds a lot of meaning to me and i'd die if anything ever happened to it. it's almost as if its my last link to them. crap, i'm gunna start crying again if i continue this. i should stop now... (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 28th, 2004
8:16 pm	Dearly Departed my mom saw the vigil for the girl who died yesterday at the intsection of moulton & rancho niguel. there were a lot of people gathered around the bus stop. i noticed a lot of flowers there earlier. My mom and I went down to go pay our respects. it was really sad. i almost cried and i don't even know the girl. her name was Cindy. I believe her last name started with a G. i can't remember. to any one who knew her, i'm really sorry. I still can't believe it happened only 5 min after i passed through there. I kind of wish i was there when it happened because no1 but the lady walking herdog stopped to help. we would have. but in a way it's good i didn't see because i don't think i could get over viewing something so horrifying as a girl my age being thrown 200ft by a car. it's just something that would stick with you forever. we're probably going to go put flowers down tomorrow. i feel a little akward since i didn't know her but that isn't the point so we're doing it anyways. there were a lot of news stations there tonight as well as kids from dana. it broke my heart watching them cry into each other. i hope i never have to do that. so stay safe guys, and never let your gaurd down cause it could be the last time you do... Current Mood: sad Current Music: concrete angel (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
8:58 pm	better mood HAPPY BIRTHDAY TALIA!!!! ok, yeah. i'm done ranting from earlier though i could continue for a looooooooooooooooooong time i won't :). ok, so i haven't been on here in a while but now i am so there! i still like xanga better. last saturday ruled. i went out with trisha and chritine to the flip club (yes i'm in it but *points* they made me!)lol. mucho fun. hehe, i was the only white person there. trisha wanted to color me with her brown marker ;). we got lost cause trisha didn't know where the heck she was goin. lol. then we finally found it and thought some random person was wavin to us but it was a person of the flip club. we went down this path cause idk guess we got bored. trisha thoght some1 was gunna jump out and rape us. then these things kept movin in the bushes so we freaked out but it turned out to be a LOT of little lizards..hehe. food was good and trishie's aunt madethat grahm cracker thingy that i luv...yummy. must have recipe!!! lol. around 4:30 we headed up to the movies and went to go c taxi. hilarious movie btw. totally awesome. especially the laughin gas. trisha was laughin for like 1 min after it.we got ice cream after the movie. well, i got ice cream and the other two peeps got frozen yogurt cause they're like that. lol. neways, it made us super hyper and we got on the subject of a talkin toilet cause of sumthin in my 6th grade home ec class. hehe, a talkin toilet in cookin, great eh? christine started usin her ice cream bowl as a toilet and was like 'hey kids! wanna take a crap?' and as hyper as we were we died laugin...then it sounded like the toilet got clogged...lol. and trisha said "believe it or not, i use to be normal." i just put a spoonful of ice cream into my mouth andi started laughin and almost choked on it. and then with them two askin y i was laughin that hard it made it worse. lol. i almost inhaled it. hehe. good times! luv it! thanks guys! i was hyper for bout an hr afterward and started talkin to every1's away messages. then i crashed cause the sugah wore off. now for monday---not good. it was an ok day but a few things aggravated me to no end which i won't go into. then my mom picks me up and she;s like i got bad news. so i said ok. she told me the chekc for $16000 bob was suppose to get from this company wasn't commin cause the company folded. so now we don have enough $ to pay for our car so it's gunna b takin away ne day now. we still have bob's junky car and anthony's junky car so iguess they'll have to do. and then we get home and i'm a little bummed but was pretty determined not to get in bad mood cause that's been happenin a lot lately so of course, somethin happens. i hear my mom yellin my name, shoutin it from the garage so i run to c what's goin on and my great dane is spread out on the floor lyin in her own mess. apparently she was stuck like for a while. my mom lifted her up and tried to bring her outside but she collasped just outside the doorway. we thought hse was gunna die so my mom just held her for a while with tears in her eyes while i tried not to cry either. then we finally got her over onto the grass and laid her down. she was shaking and whining and couldn't stand on her own. i sat with her while my mom cleaned up. we then washed her and tried to get out into the sun so she wouldn't get cold but hse didn't make it. she collasped in the garage so we got towels and driend her off. she was shiverin so i got her a quilt. i stayed with her for a while o keep an eye on her with my mom there too. after a while i went to go get changed cause i smelt like crap. then i watched her while my mom took a shower. i ended up fallin asleep leavin up against an old dresser. Sabrina(great dane's name) finally fell alseep with me there thank god. i got a stiff baq from that but its ok. she felt more comfortable with 1 of us there. she whined if we were wern't or just stared at us. i felt soooooo bad for her i wanted to cry. i was sooo afraid she was gunna that day. she's my age which is about 6 years over her age limit. it scared me. another is if she couldn't get up and wlk on her own it would be torture to keep her alive and make her sufferso we'd have to put her to sleep. we had to put my cat to sleep bout 1 year ago and i still miss her. geeze, she was older than me! later that nite sabrina was able to get up on her own and walk around thank god. then bout 11 at nite i was able to start my hw and studyfor 2 tests...not good but at least my dog is ok. now u can c more why i am ticked at those punk kids. sabrina can get up still but its hard for her. idk how much longer she has to live...:( Current Mood: okay (2 Comments |Comment on this)
7:53 pm	STUPID KIDS OMG! now i;m ticked off. these kids are always up in the back where you're NOT suppose to be. they have a ladder set up and everything. i'm not sayin its them for sure but i bet it is. we found all this crap and fruit in our yard that those stupid PUNKS threw AT MY DOGS! FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!! they're dogs! y would some1 do that!?! especially to my great dane! she's like 105 in dog years! she has hip problems and just get up and get out of the way! it's cruel! i can't believe some1 would do that!!! THEY BETTER HOPE THAT I NEVER FIND THEM!!! no1 aroundh as seen me made yet but i tell ya 1 two things u don't mess with r famliy and friends and my pets r part of the family. god, idk how people could b so cruel so animals but if i ever catch them i'll teach them not to... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
12:50 am	bad day... well, most of wut i have to say is in this im with saba who i want to thank for everything! i luv ya~ hyperacktivegirl: there's just a lot goin on rite now IAmThe Smurf612: ohh like with family or friends? hyperacktivegirl: mainly family hyperacktivegirl: anthony & bob are always at each other's throats hyperacktivegirl: anthony might not graduate this year cause of his grades hyperacktivegirl: and when he gets out of skewl he's goin baq to ct hyperacktivegirl: so it'll only b me & my mom hyperacktivegirl: and we might not b commin baq for xmas now hyperacktivegirl: and i don't think i can wait a whole year to come baq hyperacktivegirl: i alreayd miss ct and i've only been baq for bout a month hyperacktivegirl: last year it was really hard & painful waitin the whole year hyperacktivegirl: i don wanna go through that again hyperacktivegirl: and i had that fream bout ct last nite hyperacktivegirl: and it felt so real IAmThe Smurf612: oh hold on....that's not good that bob and ant are fighting...they should try talking to each other and try getting along...like u mom should make them get along...secondly anthony is really stupid and should really care about school cuz education is theonly thing that can get u through lifee and he shouldn't leave u guys all alone in cali...and it sucks mucho that ur not comming bacckkk IAmThe Smurf612: and i hope u do!!! IAmThe Smurf612: cuz i want to see u hyperacktivegirl: i miss u and every1 so much hyperacktivegirl: i just wanna go home IAmThe Smurf612: but maybe u should write anthony a letter telling him like all this shyt like how he should bring his grades up and try hard to get through high school cuz he really doesn't wanna do it again. and its his last year. and all this stuff. and about his leaving and everything hyperacktivegirl: he odesn't listen that's the problem hyperacktivegirl: and we have tried to get him & bob to get along hyperacktivegirl: they just won't hyperacktivegirl: any chance they get they tell each other off hyperacktivegirl: or do sumthin to annoy the other hyperacktivegirl: and u know my great dane rite? hyperacktivegirl: sabrina? hyperacktivegirl: she's 15 and she's only suppose to live to b 8-10 years old hyperacktivegirl: and now she has hip problems hyperacktivegirl: where she can' get up on her own a lot of times hyperacktivegirl: and when she can't get up on own anymore we're gunna have to put her to sleep IAmThe Smurf612: oh wow u really are going to a lot of shytt hyperacktivegirl: no kiddin hyperacktivegirl: and to top it off, my mom got fired hyperacktivegirl: by that crazy b*tch hyperacktivegirl: and just to hurt us, she said that we can never her kids again hyperacktivegirl: the oldest emma had tears in her eyes hyperacktivegirl: the babies didn't knowwhy my om was cryin when she left hyperacktivegirl: and the 7 year old olivia just kept starin at the ground hyperacktivegirl: and i luv them like a second family IAmThe Smurf612: yeah u told me about that IAmThe Smurf612: that sucked ass...why'd ur mom get fired? hyperacktivegirl: and i was really lookin forward to watchin the babies grow up hyperacktivegirl: they probably won't even remember me when they grow up now hyperacktivegirl: my mom went to work sick cause she caught wut 1 of the babies had hyperacktivegirl: and her crazy boss was already in a bad mood hyperacktivegirl: all my mom asked was is it ok if she didn't get to te vacuuming today and did it later tonite when she came to babysitt hyperacktivegirl: and herr goin there that nite she was doin for free hyperacktivegirl: andthe lady flipped out and yelled at her hyperacktivegirl: and kept sayin 'u can'thandle it' hyperacktivegirl: and went off IAmThe Smurf612: ok wow that is retarded! hyperacktivegirl: yeah hyperacktivegirl: abnd she fired her hyperacktivegirl: and i know the 3 year old is asking for us hyperacktivegirl: cause he odesn't understnad hyperacktivegirl: and bout 2 months ago when me & my mom first came out to ct hyperacktivegirl: he got sad and started ryin cause he iddn't think that we would come baq hyperacktivegirl: and we told him we would IAmThe Smurf612: awww IAmThe Smurf612: how cutee!!! hyperacktivegirl: we promised we would hyperacktivegirl: i never got to say goodbye to them IAmThe Smurf612: wow that's a sad story hyperacktivegirl: and it hurts....knowin i never will IAmThe Smurf612: it must IAmThe Smurf612: do they have a father? hyperacktivegirl: yeah hyperacktivegirl: he's really nice hyperacktivegirl: but influenced by her IAmThe Smurf612: so y doesn't ur mom try talking to him IAmThe Smurf612: huh? hyperacktivegirl: she's gunna try, but idk if it will work hyperacktivegirl: hte husband is influenced by hiswife hyperacktivegirl: the* IAmThe Smurf612: ohh ok hyperacktivegirl: hey, thnx for listenin but i g2g...all this cryin gave me a headache:-\ IAmThe Smurf612: ohh i'm sorryy hyperacktivegirl: its ok IAmThe Smurf612: but tah's wut i'm here for IAmThe Smurf612: to listen! hyperacktivegirl: lol thnx for everything hyperacktivegirl: i really appreciate it IAmThe Smurf612: yupp NO PROBLEMO AMSTEROOO hyperacktivegirl: bye IAmThe Smurf612: bye bye feel betterrr hyperacktivegirl: thanks (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 6th, 2004
11:15 pm	still sick bleh, i'm still sick as the subject thingy says. and i just took nyquil so this might have to b short or else i'll pass out at the computer. hehe. i'm feelin better today though not good enough to go to skewl tomorrow. i'm tryin to get well enough to go to skewl on wedn at least, i don care if i miss thurs or not. i want to b ALL better by friday though. i'm not sure if that's gunna happen but its worth a shot! neways, i've been gavin antoher crappy day. i can't get in touch with my dad so i;m a little worried altho i do get worried easily. Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
9:23 pm	boredom ~Saturday~ god today sucked! i feel much worse than yesterday. i can barely talk. my sore throat is still here, my nose won't stop running unless it gets stuffy instead and i keep sneezin and coughin makin my sore throat worse! it sucks... last nite when i got home i almost threw up. i was up like 1/2 nite. i can't believe i feel like this 4 days before my bday! i hope i get better by then but if i don't then at LEAST by friday or else i'll have to cancel my party which i REALLY don't wanna do! o yeah! and i found a movie to go c! i was watchin tv cause there's barely nethin else to do while feelin like this and this preview came up for cellular which i want to c badly. it said commin sept 10 which is the nite of my party and i was like 'yes!' *which hurt my throat, stupid me!*. i forgot my cat was sleepin on my leg and he jumped with his eyes wide open. it was funny but i felt bad. lol 3rd period was THE WORST! my throat hurt & stuff and we had to do presentations in groups. i got stuck with these 2 stupid guys who barely did nething cause my teacher chose the groups. so i started doin everything but then realized i was doin everything wrong and we only had 10 min left to draw and label and color so they made this weird 'mushtree' and we had to present it that day. i asked if i could just stand there and not say nething cause talking hurt and my teacher told me to say a sentence. i got agravated and with feelin miserable it was almost too much for me. i get really emotional when i'm sick which really sux. luckily, we ran out of time and have to present on wedn (my bday sadly..). if i had gone up that day i think i would of lost it in front of the stinkin class. talk bout embarrasing geeze. it gives knew meanin to julie robert's song lyrics, "sure hate to break down here..." hawa: how was ur group? me:it sucked... hawa: why? me: i was in a group with these two stupid guys- hawa: stop there, all i needed to know was two guys. hehe, at least that got me to smile :) yesterday sucked til lunch. from then on it was ok. and liz was rite- laughter is the best medicine for bein sick :P neways, we saw wicker park last nite which was pretty good but a little confusin & bout 1/3 the movie was repeats to fit everything in together. then after the movie we went to a few places and stuff. rite now i don't rmeember much cause of the way i feel so yeah. ok, bein sick has given me WAY too much time to think so i;m keepin myself busy online and stuff. i started thinkin bout ct cause of something on tv and almost started cryin...great for the sinuses huh? neways, i'll b goin now cause nyquil is startin to knock me out...nitey nite all (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
1:28 am	bad day for food who wants hear my food story? lol, even though a lot fo you already heard it. here goes- chau & jay were gunna go to wendy's and they were gunna get me sumthin. then anthony asked if i wanted him to go to wendy's and i said no then he got mad cause he couldn't go to the movies unless he broke the $20. so i said yeah and then he got even more mad cause he had already told some1 he couldn't go. then he said he would pick me up sumthin. chau asked if i wanted nething and i said anthony was goin to get sumthin. 15 min later, his ride still isn't here and isn't comming. by this time, jay has already left for wendy's but chau stayed home. so she called him for me and told him wut to get. then his phone died. so me & chau were gettin ready to walk down to wendy's when he got baq to her house. i asked if they had my food and he said there was a baggie on my doorstep. i guess he knocked and i didn't him up in my room. so i asked anthony to check for me and he saw nothin. so then i went down to go check and there was nothing. me and anthony even checked the neighbor's houses but they didn't have it either. i checked off & on just incase i missed sumthin. i told them and they said that they don eat chicken nuggets & the reciet says he bought it. so some1 stole my wendy's. and i have a pretty good idea who it was. these people we don't like across the street had their garage door open and the light on. anthony thinks it's them to but for different reasons i won't get into rite now. neways, so chau offers me her food and i told her nah. then i ranted to gian and she said she'd get me sumthin if she had a car. so, after all that, wut did i have for supper? A CAN OF PEAS. nice huh? that's y i wanted other food in the first place, our house has nothin. we haven't gone shoppin since we got baq. neways, so tonite is officially my bad night for food. hope u enjoyed my story~ Current Mood: where's my wendy's? Current Music: 'come to jesus' by mindy sumthin...it's stuck in my head! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 28th, 2004
2:30 am	idk... idk what i'm doing. it's 2:30 in the morning and i tried doin this at 2am but every1 had my name and icouldn't think of one so i guess this is mine now. i wanted my old one on xanga!!! WAHH!! i wanna be Rogue_Faerie!! this isnt fair. lol. ok, done rantin. not done rantin! just rantin on sumthin else now. i went to carrow's for supper and they gave me a kid's menu!!! GAAHH!!! i hate that! and then she gave me crayons. i was like 'o god...'. then i turned to my mom and i said 'i told u i didn't wanna come!' lol. evil people. do i like like a kid?! huh? huh?! HUH?! i hate that soooooooooo much. k-now i'm done. hehe Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: 'i hate everything' by some guy on the radio (2 Comments |Comment on this)